Ode to Happiness

Some say they think it's right for people to be happy. That in fact they should be happy. Well, some do find a reason for happiness from the set of possibilities provided by current reality. Others see a potential happinessfrom the set of possibilities that are not yet provided by reality. The first group is lucky, I guess.Such folk say to the second group, "You are unrealistic." And, "You should be happy." The second group helplessly shrugs.They detest the first group. The second group changes the world. Happiness is so much more meaningful when you know what the world is like without it. How can you feel warm when you have never been cold? How can you feel full when you have never felt hunger? So how can you know what it looks like when the sun rises if you have been living in darkness your whole life?



For a long time i think i meandered through mediocracy. I was ok with the glass not being full or empty. In the middle was just ok for me. And just ok was sufficient. I don't know why it changed. I don't know why I feel different. I don't know why I can look at the sun and even though I know it will rise everymorning, i can appreciate it even still. I am grateful to the people in my life who want to make me a better person. I am grateful for the people who want to see me with my glass half full.

I found this website while I was searching for quotes. I thought it was pretty interesting.

http://help.com/post/199270-i-noticed-everyone-belonging-to-th

I thought that was pretty funny. =]

Anyways. For the first time in a long time. I am happy. =] I don't know why, but I don't really care. =]


"The way will be lighter, the worries will be fewer, the confrontations will be less difficult if we cultivate a spirit of happiness."
Gordon B. Hinckley - Oct. Conf 2002

How Grateful I am.

My earlier post about how no one knows me, I think came across wrong. Maybe it was just the downer mood I was in, or something else... I don't know. But I have the most awesome people in my life. I think that sometimes i take for granted how many things in my life are such huge blessings. So thank you, Lynds, and Linds, and Debbie for helping me to remember. So now, I am going to take a minute and list all of the things that I am most grateful for.

Sophie

My dad

My mom

Haden

Rylie

Kenlie

My extended family

My friends

(namely Manda, Kyle, Ash.)

My old friends

(Their mothers =])

A house to live in

Food to eat

A car to drive

My grandparents

Patience and Understanding

Repentance

The lessons I have learned

The places I have been

Candy

Diet Coke

Long length jeans

Flat shoes

Earrings

Fall time

The sun

People who are different than me

Honesty

Integrity

Tough love

Fruit and Veggies

Jason's Deli

The people who make me happy

Movies

Music

(Namely the shins for keeping me from going insane.)

Words

I am a Sailor.

The gutter may profess its love,
Then follow it with hesitation,
But there are just so many of
You out there for rent
A stronger girl would shake this off in flight,
And never give it more than a frowning hour,
But i have let my heart decide,Loss has conquered me,
You've won one too many fights,
Wearing many hats every time,
But you wont win here tonight,
You've made it through the direst of straits alright,
Can you help it if plain love now seems less interesting?
You haven't changed an ounce in my eyes,
And I cannot lecture you,
And does anything I say seem relevant at all?
You've been at the helm since you were just five,
While I cannot claim to be more than a passenger,
But, you've won one too many fights,
Wearing all of your clothes at the same time,
Let the good times end tonight,
Oh girl, sail her, don't sink her,
This time,
Just a moment or two from now,
Not a mind will retain even a trace,
Of the thoughts that I struggled to tell
And how our stack of cards just fell,
So settle this once and for all,
The light no longer shows the cracks around my door,
And I have no lantern to light your way home tonight,
You are not some saint who's above,
Giving someone a stroll through the flowers,
You've got so much more to dream of,
Oh girl, sail her, don't sink her,
This time.

ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGAHHHHHHHHUGGGGGGGGGHMMMMMMMMMPHHHHHHH!

yep. i said it. no one really even reads my blog. so why write? i dont know. i guess it's a vent. i can say what i want, and maybe it is a little more comforting knowing that no one will read it.



i ended things with chris. so now, after its done you can see his face. brace yourself.

yeah there he is. in all of his glory. it didn't work.

this morning after i woke up, i was just sitting there in my bed thinking.... there is not one single person in this whole entire world that knows me. right here on this day of October whatever day it is, not one single person knows megan. my family has no idea what is going on in my life. My friends have no idea what is going on in my life, no one knows me. after i thought about that i cried. for a good 20 minutes. how pathetic is my life that no one consistently cares about what happens everyday of my life. i will go ahead and say that is probably one of the most terribly sad things i have ever had to tell myself. and even now, i can write all of this, but really.....? the only person who might read this, is the mother of someone who used to know me. ha. wow.
anywho. work is good. oh and i have hung out with justin lake twice in the last 3 days. probably the best thing to happen since the last time we hung out 3 1/2 years ago.

i have decided that i hate the internet. i hate how public it makes everyone lives. i hate knowing everything about someone because i can read it on facebook or myspace or on their blog. i hate cell phones too. i wish cell phones and internet were never inventer. eek. what a world.

i guess that is it.

This one's for Deb. Ha, sundevil.

My life, still, is freakin boring. But... like i said, i DO have a boyfriend. His name is Chris, he is an old fart. He was married before and has a 2 year old son named Trae, who i adore. He is sooooo cute. But he treats me really good, i have alot of fun with him. So for now, i am ok. But you all know how i am with guys... so we will see how long it lasts. My friend Bry Bry pulled a shady move, and is now on his way to Louisianna to go to prison. If you have watched the news lately you have probably heard that story about the 3 men arrested for the underage girls, dirty website, and booze RV. Yeah talk about a bad weekend in Mardi Gras. They will never live this down. Anywho. I'm sure you all heard all about it, and it was a huge shock to everyone that knew him. We thought he was such a good guy, and no one had any idea any of this was going on. So, that is weird. And sad. I feel bad for him. MANDA IS OUT OF ALASKA!!!!! WOOHOO!!! i think she may be in utah sometime soon which will be such a happy happy day for me. hmmmm. what else?

I just love fall. It is so fun. And i love halloween it is so fun too. I just am sad that winter comes next. =[ i think that is all. Oh, and i freaking HATE Miley Cyrus. Hannah Montana can rot in hell. Such a dirty skank face.

Fall

Got a boyfriend. Name's Chris. That's all.

BORING

I haven't written much in a while. That's because I don't have much to write. My life is pretty booooooooring lately. So I guess I will just give you a quick update on what is going on. I am getting my shiii together to get school started up again. Hopefully here within the next few weeks. But, deep down in my heart I will always be a bum. =] My bestie Ash's birthday is this Wednesday so we are having a little shin dig for her this weekend at her cabin. We were going to try and make it a surprise, but that didn't work out because she has to get the keys from her padre. So... boo. Umm.... I've been sick the last week, but I am starting to get over it. Jennie had her baby. Welcome to the world little Gracie May!

She is sooo tiny! I think Jennie told me just a little over 3 lbs. But doing well! They expect her to be in the NICU for about a month.

Ummm.... other than that.... nothing. I guess here is a picture from our girls night.... enjoy!